The faces that have charmed us the most escape us the soonest

i want to feel numb. i want to go away. i don't want this anymore. there is so much hurt inside and i don't think i can contain this any longer. the longer it stays in my heart the harder it gets. i want to cry but no tears are coming out from my eyes. i want to shout but no voice is coming out.

i don't deserve this pain. i don't deserve this sorrow. why can't i just be happy? is it because my happiness is at the expense of others? but i have sacrificed a lot? too much sacrifice that i'm slowly becoming a stranger of my own shadow. i'm losing myself. i'm losing i