WHO AM I?

Hi I'm the Wicked Mistress... or could it be the Mistress in Distress... or the PATHETIC ONE. Whichever name you'll call or I'll call myself, I'm still me... my own WORST ENEMY.

I have given it all to him. Forgot my own needs, just for him. I don't why? I don't what I am getting out of it. For sure there's nothing... maybe there's something... I don't fucking now. Sometimes I want to slap myself for being so stupid. I let myself be drowned by him. Sometimes I forget who I really am. I look at the mirror and I don't recognize the image. I am a stranger to my own shadow. I want to be freed by his chains but I'm afraid I can't go on.

He has inspired me more than anyone ever had. He believed in all that I am capable of and pushed me to my limit. And I am thankful. I know that I will never be where I am now if not for him. He gave me the drive to reach my dreams and made me believe in myself and all that I can do.

I maybe the wicked mistress, but I was the one who was there when you were at the edge. I was the steady arm who stood by you and assured that everything will be alright. I was the ear who listened to all of your complaints... your problems.

I am who I am. A nightmare... a villain for most women. But I am just a lost lover. Clinging into the arms of a married man. Hoping to get the love and attention that I have longed for.