O.N.S

If you have nothing good to say...
don't say anything...
AT ALL!

You seldom make mistakes but when you do, it's big time and later you will realize that it wasn't worth it at all. You want to cry, and turn back the time but it's all too late. You are left with regret but you know that you won't do it. You think that if you regret on something it means that it was a mistake. Deep inside, you want to think of it as a mistake but you know that it was not and it will be never be.

You lie in your bed reminiscing the night that was. You smile, laugh and cry... you're crazy. It was worth remembering... or not. It doesn't bring butterflies in your stomach but it makes your mind wander back in time when you were together.

It was late at night, early dawn. You were both drunk from an all night partying. You have no ride home and he was there willing to take you home with a price. A kiss. You said... "Okay!" It's just a kiss anyway. You rode on the front seat and he asked for the kiss. You can't give him the kiss since it would be unlikely of a girl. You gave him the hint to make the move. But it was not the kiss you expected. Not on the cheeks but on the lips. Every stop light was an opportunity for your lips to touch. It was magical... maybe not... you were drunk remember. You went to this familiar place. So familiar that you want to forget about it. The night turned into day and you just woke up with a heavy head wanting to bang your head even harder for the crazy night.

The strange face looks familiar but it was not the face that you would want to look at. It was the smell that you have longed wanted to smell but now feel disgusted. It was the sight that you use to fantasize but now abhor. It was daydream turned reality to nightmare.

You later on realize what a total dork he is... a loser... LOSER! And then you realize that you have to someday write a blog about it. You laugh at yourself. Promise to yourself that you'll never do it again (maybe? hahaha!) None the less, it's fine. You say to yourself... " At least I've tried it..." Justify!