How am I?

How am I?

It's almost a year since the last heartache and almost 6 months since the last mistake. Looking back it makes me laugh thinking how crazy I was at one point. The things that I went through were all worth it. It made me strong. It made me into a better... bitter person that I am now. Things before were hard but I'm afraid things now are harder. More troubles... controversies... responsibility... no love. Hahaha... I still don't have time for it or maybe because Mr. Right hasn't arrived yet. I'm scared that If I fall for someone or entertain someone in my life it would be another mistake and I would end up crying again. So for now, it's work and no love.

My honest mistake is no longer anywhere near me. Finally we are brought far from eachother. Much further that it's far from impossible for our paths to cross. I'm glad that's how things are right now at least I can fully move on... or can I?

Work is hard... a lot more harder than I thought. A lot more problematic and hard to deal with agents. But it's ok... I'm coping well. Maybe.

I have realized that it's been a long time since I've written here. I guess I should write more often. This has been a good venue for me to air out my frustrations. Relax and breath.

A new chapter of my life is about to start. I can feel a new dawn id breaking for me. It's scary coz I don't know what lies ahead but I know it's worth a try. With my new life... I'll have new friends and hopefully new love. :P