I'm sorry... It was my MISTAKE this time around

I'm sorry... That's all i have to say. I would admit that what I did was above and beyond unforgivable. I wouldn't say that it wasn't my intention to hurt you coz' I have hurt you more than you could imagine.

I did what I did because I thought I want you out of my life. I did what I did coz' I thought I would be better off without you.

I never thought that you would give up on me. But you did and it's killing me.

I have never felt pain the way that I am feeling it right now.

I thought that it was you who needed me when in fact it was I who needed you after all. I need you in my life more than I have never needed anyone. Now I hate myself for hurting you and causing you this much pain. I hate myself for dating that guy and loosing you in the end. I thought it was what I wanted. I thought what I want is finding a reason to leave you and be happy with someone else. But when I was in that moment when I have to choose whether to leave you and take the risk of being with someone else was when everything sinked in.

It's not what I want. I'd rather sleep in your small room all sweaty. I'd rather sit with you watching a movie while you play your PSP. I'd rather spend the day with you washing your clothes. I'd rather eat in a noisy, crowded food court with you. I'd rather be with you, fight with you, cry with than be with someone else.

I guess it's all too late now. You have decided to close your doors on me. You've made up your mind and have decided to leave me. I will accept that. I won't push myself any longer considering the pain and the insult that I have caused you.

I love you so much Benjie Revelo. So much!

Good Bye! ♥♥♥